Well what to say about today? A bit of time to clear up? That’s not so exciting, but necessary for me. Emails and paperwork as always – still the weather was glorious. Lots of decisions to make about my new sitting room. Yes that’s the way I’m feeling at the moment. I wish I didn’t but it just creeps up on me and I feel so sad – full of very mixed feelings. Mowing the grass in the sunshine helped a bit. This has nothing to do with loneliness. More, that I have been left in limbo – waiting – but for what? Do I really want to wait? Looking back I realise I have spent most of my life waiting for Tom to have time for me. I suppose I need to accept that he doesn’t actually want to spend time with me. He probably likes to think he wants to be with me, but in reality he doesn’t. Arrgh…. what am I going to do? Please make these thoughts go away.
Vet at 5pm to give Rog a thorough check over before I go away. He’s in fine fettle.
I tried to help Franki get Glasto tickets this evening – but no joy. Then straight off to Gunwharf to take the dressing gown back. Plus I decided to buy a large bag rather than take a horrible suitcase away with me – I find them so awkward and leg bashing.
More playing with this blog in the evening and before I realised, it was well gone midnight. The best plans for early go awry